Of lackadaisical days… or not….. September 30, 2006

Just when you’d think I’d given up this blog… I updated…

I’m in Miz’s room right now… Listening to her emo songs while listening to the songs on my new phone as well… sigh… Twas supposed to do my business assignment but oh well… Did I mention Miz is asleep?

A lot has happened in the past week.For starters, I am once again back in my beloved uni….. Ah, I love my life here… kinda?

Fasting month has started, and suprisingly, it ain’t a prob here in UTP. Food is always in abundance *I mean cmon, you have 5 villages and each of em has a cafe with a couple of stalls*, but the queue for food is horrendously LOOOOOOOONG! I mean, if you don’t go to the cafe early enough, then, say bye bye to eating on time…

Tee hee, slept at 3 on Thursday due to ENglish assignment.. ARGH!!!!

Owh, and yesterday, just for a change, Aini, Miz, Kima, Bims, Yana and myself drove to some food stall by the roadside… I mean UTP’s food is fine and all but, this is the fasting month! WHere Malaysians INDULGE bebeh! Anyway, the food was soooo SCRUMPTIOUS, I actually ate like a monster who has not eaten for 84239382901819 years! Tom Yam, batter fried squid and prawns, kailan and 3 flavoured fish *don’t ask*… YUMMMMM!!!! Because we went in a group, the whole set cost us only RM67.. which is about RM11 per person! Wheeeee!

However, yesterday was quite daunting as well. You see, today I had my Intro to Comp and Info Systems test *quite easy actually*… Hahaha but Me and Miz actually did an all nighter the night before. We studied like mad, and now we know the whole of chap 1-9 1/2 of the book! OMG! Did I tell you that both of us finally slept at around 6a.m.? Yeah… Twas that bad. I mean, we stayed up till sahur man! We now officially look like raccoons!

Hope I get good results… I mean… I kinda flunked my maths.. So I’m hoping my ICIS will make up for it ^_^…

Right, to tell you the truth, I’ve added a few more stalkees to stalk. Tee heee… most of em are my coursemates for… weird reasons… and then there’s this one guy from another course. My friends, as usual, are questioning my taste… but I don’t care!

IT’S STALKING TIME!!!!

*throwing restraint to the wind…. oops…..*

I’m feeling a bit down now…. Actually, today my extended family *grandparents, uncles, cousins etc* are having a breaking fast buffet at Tropicana!!! No way!!! This is the ONLY time I haven’t been around for a family gathering…. Suddenly, I feel like I miss all of them a great deal… NOOOOO!!! I wanna go homeeeeeee! FOOOOOOOD!

Anyhow, I have to remind myself that this is the Holy month of Ramadhan, a month where doing extra bits of goodness is rewarded generously. This is also the time to restrain ourselves from thinking about inappropriate things, and doing evil things as well… Not that hard actually, sans the stalking… ANYHOW, it is also in this month that your actions are governed 100% by your own desires, and not by outside influences like the devil…

So think about it…. And BELIEVE IT!

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Currently Listening To : Chain by BACK-ON
Currently Watching : -
Currently Reading : nothing… lazy…
Currently Drawing : -
Currently Downloading : -
Currently Wishing : Meep…….
Currently Wants : TO STALK RANDOM STALKEES!!!!!!!!!
Currently Thinking : WHY THE HECK AM I SO SHY?!!!!
Currently Stressing About : nothing… kinda…. is that a bad thing?

MY ALTER EGOES!
NioraptH at GameFaqs… I LOVE GAMEFAQS!
Kleiorihs at DeviantArt … so don’t say I stole the pics here… I drew them by hand and coloured them in!
Seyruiene at WordPress … yup it’s my sad sad blog….

P/S: Isn’t Fiehie *pronounced Fee- Hee* cute?

Melancholy days….. Grandad… September 19, 2006

Mid-sem definitely took a downhill turn for me this week….

Sorry to bore and agitate you with my angst but… I can’t help it…

Today was the last day my Tok Ayah *Grandpa on dad’s side* stayed with his family… He is somewhere nearby, just ot living with his family.

Tok Ayah has dementia + Parkinson and is senile, a genetic trait in my family. Occasionally he remembers people but not so nowadays. It’s sad when your own grandpa doesn’t remember who you are.

He was a great grandad. When I was small, I spoke abysmal Malay and did not understand the Kelantanese dialect that much. So my grandad spoke to me in English. When I think back, sure, I was a disgrace to my family members *for not being able to utter word of my dialect… till now even* but having grandpa speak English to me only was kind of special.

He’s very quiet person, and doesn’t say much. But he will always persuade me to study, work hard, and to remember God. I never really cared back then, but now, I treasure his words deeply.

I never talked to him much, mainly because I was scared of him, and the fact that he smoked. I made him feel redundant, and maybe I made him feel that I didn’t care. In fact I did… I just didn’t know how to show it much.

My dad’s parents live in a state called Kelantan, which is far away from where I live and study. I guess that also amounts as to why I didn’t visit him much.

Due to the disease, he… doesn’t really act right. My Mak Tok *grandma* well, doesn’t really understand the disease *due to limited education* and she thinks he’s putting on a show, when he’s not… There have been many riffraffs, and it all boiled down to the final solution:

Send him to an old folks home.

None of my relatives can take care of him… due to work and various reasons, and I guess this was the best. Heck, even I’m not around, else I would have taken care of grandad. I know many of you would think this is heartless, but really, it wasn’t my idea. Grandad and Grandma certainly couldn’t stand each other *in a sense* at home.

I couldn’t bear to see him off today… else I would cry. I tried to be brave, but….

As I’m typing this, I’m shedding some tears, remembering my grandad.. but somehow, not many memories of him are popping out.

My dad says he was happy there at the home… I hope he is…

All I can do is pray to God for the best.

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Currently Listening To : Chain by BACK-ON *somehow this is soothing*
Currently Watching : -
Currently Reading : -
Currently Drawing : -
Currently Downloading : random animes and songs
Currently Wishing : for grandad to have a happoer life
Currently Wants : see above
Currently Thinking : grandad…
Currently Stressing About : no use stressing bout something which has already been done.

Temporal Hikikomiri-ness September 18, 2006

Guess what? I’M BACK FOR MY MID-SEMESTER BREAK~! Wheee!!!

But somehow, I’m TOTALLY BORED AT HOME!! I need something to do! I’m so bored! I left my scanner and tablet at uni so I would actually study at home. But but but…ARGH!!!

I’ve been watching a great deal of shoujo anime lately. Stuff like Honey and Clover, Paradise Kiss, Nana… etc, and I find that… I see my life in there.. sad huh?

I’m ever so lonely here at home… sigh.. not even Animax fills the void! I’m so bored!

Last Saturday, I went out with Nyaa… I was soo happy to see my best fwens! Jon, Sha, Li Shan… I miss he good old days where we would just be talking bout junk, and hang around…. Great, I’m feeling melancholy…. Anyway, the trip was fun! And I’m targetting this white dress I saw… Gotta ask mom to buy it for me

Sigh…… I miss my uni……

For now, I’m stuck being a hikikomori for one week… taa haa haaa

OWH!!! Add me to friendster if you have an account! shiroi_elk@hotmail.com

~~~~~~~~MY LISTS~~~~~~~~~~~ Steal if you want but credit me~~~~~
*but Saqina already stole them*

TOP 10 FAV BISHIES STATUS!

10. Axel *Kingdom Hearts series*- Got it memorized?
09. Ohtori Kyouya *Ouran High School Host CLub*- .. uh .. fine, I’ll stop denying the fact
I like Kyouya..
08. Hyde *Kamui*- ZOMBIE~~~~!!!!!
07. Yzak Joule *Gundam SEED series*- I’m commander now! Don’t order me around you
civillian!
06. Kimihiro Watanuki *xxxHOLiC*- SPAZZ!!! And he can see spirits!
05. Albel Nox *Star Ocean 3*- *stabs* MAGGOTS! FOOLS!
04. Serge *Chrono Cross* – He’s special! Though he did cause destruction to the world…..
03. Asagi Nanami *Category: Freaks*- white hair lalala! FREAK EXTERMINATOR!
02. Wanijima Akito/Agito *Air Gear* – A sweetie and a psycho… WHEE!!
01. Yanagi *Kamui*- Hotness in glasses! Can you say… drool?

Bye bye Lumine, reshuffle, and hello Agito~!

TOP 10 FAV FEMALE CHARACTERS

10. Mudie Holcroft *Gundam SEED Stargazer* – died to soon to be cool
09. Souseiseki *Rozen Maiden*- Big.. scissors… are cool!
08. Shiho Hahnenfuss *MSV Gundam SEED*- My imaginary sister….
07. Schala ‘Kid’ Zeal *Chrono Cross* – my 1st idol!
06. Suigintou *Rozen Maiden*- I’d want her to be mine!
05. Enma Ai *Jigoku Shoujo*- chibi Yuuko 2.0
04. Ichihara Yuuko *xxxHOLiC*- my idol
03. Fujioka Haruhi *Ouran Kokou Host Club*- She’s…. just… COOL!
02. Sohma Akito *Fruits Basket*- she’s pretty… and psycho… awwwww
01. Suzumiya Haruhi *The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi*- She’s like me!!!

Bye bye Nana Hello Mudie!

Currently Listening To : Countdown by Hyde
Currently Watching : Muteki Kanban Musume 8… HAHAHAAA!
Currently Reading : nothing… lazy…
Currently Drawing : -
Currently Downloading : random animes
Currently Wishing : TO STALK THIS CUTE GUY!
Currently Wants : TO AT LEAST TALK TO AFOREMENTIONED GUY!
Currently Thinking : WHY THE HECK AM I SO SHY?!!!!
Currently Stressing About : I WANNA GO BACK TO UNI!!!!

MY ALTER EGOES!
NioraptH at GameFaqs… I LOVE GAMEFAQS!
Kleiorihs at DeviantArt … so don’t say I stole the pics here… I drew them by hand and coloured them in!
Seyruiene at WordPress … yup it’s my sad sad blog….

Ok that’s it…

TILL NEXT TIME!!!
When I’m not that shy…..

The~girl~who~is~*^_^*~
~Kleiorihs~ShiroiElk~NioraptH~Seyruiene~Sal~Wawa~Salwa~Nadia

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